Calming My Pain

Inspired by my friend's words ......

My friend Bart wrote this :

Distraction to help cope with pain: Creating a September afternoon on a lake. Not going to go into every detail here but you create the boat. You feel the texture of the seat. The gentle rocking. The lake holding you up. The surface tension of the water and the coolness underneath. The singing of the birds and bugs. The soft rustle of leaves. The wind with whispers of summer and clarity of fall. You can taste the metal in the air from the seats of the boat along with the brine of the lake. You take these static images, memories and a million more then you start to animate them. For me it's a good technique to help with pain.

When the pain hits you

Retreat into a weird world you do

Pain can be different and off the scale

Unbearable but I still live to tell the tale

So the world you retreat to is in your mind

Helps to relive peaceful memories from your mind

So have some lined

So to self you can be kind

Today’s choice is a September afternoon on a lake

You can take memory and a universe create

A boat is bobbing in the water

Seated in there listening to the lapping of water

Feel the texture of the seat

Gentle rocking of the water you cannot beat

The water cradles the boat

Leaving you happily to float

The birds are chirping and singing

The flies and insects are also buzzing

The sun is gentle as the afternoon advances

Sparkle of light on water slowly fades

The wind with whispers of summer and clarity of fall

The soft rustle of leaves that I clearly recall

The smell of moist earth and fading flowers

Will remain into the small hours

My mind is calm

The memory a soothing balm

Relationships

There are so many relationships

Blood ties and friendships

One would expect that blood ties will be stronger

The proverb is blood is thicker than water

But in reality nothing is further than that

The changed society has seen to that

Friendships are the basis of family today

The affection and care has to be mixed with liking today

Liking is very different from loving

For I can love without liking

The relationships get complex over time

Some fade and some strengthen over time

I try to maintain contact, keep in touch

Expecting reciprocation, is it much?

Eventually one realises that people are busy

And letting go becomes easy

Maybe your karma with them is over

Relationship with them is then over

Struggling to keep it going is useless

The throes of dying relationship grow less and less

Friendships can also go that way

But they can also get stronger and deeper along the way

Friend is one you can rely on and lean on

Always on his mind even when you are gone

With the friend there is often a connection

A weird and wonderful same wavelength kind of connection

You kind of know when the other is looking for you

The meeting of minds that is a joy for him and you

There is no effort in keeping in touch

To support the friend is never too much

Friends are now my family

Just as much if not more than my family

Life is enriched by relationships

Blood ties and friendships

My Wednesday

It is a nice sunny spring day

So why do I feel this way?

The breeze rustling through the trees

To me feels cold enough to freeze

But of course today is chemo day

Leaving my head in a mess, what can I say?

All senses are more intense

The taste is dulled but hearing intense

Mood swings from cheery to sad

Perceived slight making me feel bad

This depressed feeling I am aware of

Active social contact can soon see it off

But lethargy of thought and intent rules

Positive and negative thinking duels

Effort has to be made for everything today

Everything feels too much today

The fever and chills that will creep up by the end of the day

The odd nausea often makes itself known on this day

Some days sleep is hard to come by

On other days the fatigue helps the shut eye

This is my Wednesday every week

Am thankful for the medicine every week