Wednesday 28 October 2009

Repairing a broken heart

Is there a sound when a heart breaks?
Does anyone know when a heart breaks?
Can anyone see when a heart breaks?
Does anyone care when a heart breaks?

Life is full of ups and downs and heart aches
But its always a big deal when a heart breaks
What can be done to repair that heart
oh where does one begin to start

Dreary and short winter days add to the sadness
what are the ways to overcome this winter madness
let the cheering sun come out
to allow the banishment of depression bout

play some good music and dance
waltzing to music of romance
be with me to conquer my blues
dance with me to banish the sad hues

can we learn to laugh together again?
can we learn to dream again?
can we become best friends again?
and lean on each other again?

while spring is ideal time to renew each vow
however autumn is what we have now
so let us prepare the land of life
plow it ready by removing strife

joy shall be ours
happiness shall be ours
prosperity will move in
peace will reign

Tuesday 27 October 2009

Shows that make me laugh

Have not been here for a few days now. Not sure why I was quiet as the contemplation in life and stopping to take stock had been completed a couple of weeks back. I wonder if you all saw the comedy clips I had included in the earlier blogs. There is now a new show by Russell Howard in BBC 3. This young man is funny and in his present show he does commentary on news clips. I have seen him of the program Live from Apollo in the Hammersmith and also he is a regular on Mock the Week.

I am a fan of the channel Dave as it does repeats of Mock the Week, Have I got News for You, QI, Argumental and such like. I enjoy seeing the programs over and over again as most times I find watching them so soothing that i can miss bits either through laughing or I have dropped off to sleep. Thus the repeats are always fresh for me. I know people will say how can a good program be soporific? But I find that when something is good - TV show or even movie and I am tired I can drop off happily. If the program is bad then I feel compelled to keep awake and criticise. This is true of live music as well. So I use the programs I like to drop off. Generally I put them on before bedtime and most times fall asleep peacefully.
But please let me assure you that these program are actually very good. The play on words, comedy and the wit make me laugh heartily.

There is also a Comedy Roadshow by Micheal McIntyre who also has a few other stand up comics do short stints and some are very good. I find it fascinating how the stand up can have topics that are simple everyday events and things experienced. From some of the experienced ones I have seen live is Jeremy Hardy, Kevin Day, Josie Lawrence, Eddie Izzard, Lee Evans. There are some websites that do videos of some fo their works and any time I feel low this is a good cheer me up.

Aside from stand up comedy my all time favorites, guaranteed to make me laugh are movies like Support Your Local Sheriff, Support Your Local Gunfighter, Blazing Saddles, My Fair Lady. I notice that one TV add is using that scene of cowboys eating beans around the campfire. I like the laid back attitude of James Garner in bother the Support Your... films. Saw the new Star trek movie which was good.. found I could get into it unlike my brush with the newer prequels of Star Wars. Just thought I would share - what cheers me up so others could try these out too.

Friday 16 October 2009

Happy Diwali and Happy New Year

Diwali is here and its time to banish the blues and sad unhappy times. Must look at the new year with optimism and positive outlook. You generally hear people say - you have to count your blessings. In the recent times I have not had much to add into that blessing category. Ill health has plagued my siblings and myself. Sadness and pain has become a part of life and almost a habit. I was speaking to my friend yesterday and she asked me what my rashi (star sign) was. She was interested to see how astrology works and so was looking at the astrological predictions in retrospect. Now I am a skeptic to some extent as mostly one hears about needy people being taken for a ride by charlatans. But she was saying that if appears that the stars were positioned in such a way to give me ill health. However if this past was rightly foretold then surely the future it predicts will be right? Seems this time is for change in every way and health gets renewed and life apparently is going to be renewed.

Well I can say its about time the stars moved around and gave me a better life. I do not want much - just peaceful life and cessation of this constant pain. Also I would like to reduce the medication (my bedside looks like a pharmacy) for when one starts one medicine the rest follow to stop the side effects of the one take before it. Now for the first time I am starting to reduce medication so maybe the new year is going to be better after all. The peace will come as well, as I get reconciled with the losses in my family. There is a new hope in my heart that surely it is time we have a change of fortune and begin to prosper. There are 4 of us destined to complete our study and the plan is that all of us will focus on the studying to help us cope with our losses and to achieve what our loved ones wanted us to. Then again I read a bit about noetic science and it all seems to say that being happy is in our own control. Also our minds can heal as well. Despite being skeptical of astrology, I do believe the saying - mind over matter, or else how can we explain the healing by practices such as reiki? Some people learn this art and some just have the ability. I think all of us have the ability but some are more open to it than others. I have never learned the art of reiki, in fact I have not even heard of it when I discovered that I could do healing for those symptoms that were stress related. I also find that I have to want to heal, that is it has to be for a person I care for. Also it only happens when there is genuine distress. Never could understand why these two points are important but that's the way the gift work best. But then I have never sued it to help people I do not know. Now that I am physically improved I can practice reiki on myself and so mind over matter is most likely to prevail.

Another thing life has taught in the last few years is relationships are those made by you rather than just the blood relations. Now I find that I have a few good friends and they do not fall in the category of family or friends, they are just MINE. So I prepare for the better times with positive thoughts and clear mind focusing on improving health and happiness for myself and MINE. Just try to make my little corner of the world a better place.

Wednesday 14 October 2009

Autumn is here

The days are growing shorter and day light seems to be slipping away. I do not like this time and the on coming winter just because there is less sunlight. Have always felt that I have that Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD) as I feel feel low and lack energy when I do not get sunlight. Maybe I am like a sunflower who needs the sun to flourish and dance in the wind. Since finding out I managed to have a sever lack of Vitamin D I need the sun more than ever. People keep telling me to go live in a warmer place or at least visit India where I believe it is very warm and sunny during the day. Even in winter one generally gets a good few hours of sun in India.

This year I went to Australia and it was during the winter there. Save a couple of days of rain and a couple of cloudy days the sun shone most of the time we were there. It is just the lack of sun shine that i have problem with, the cold or even the snow is fun to have. When it is cold I can bundle up in the lovely fleeces, jumpers, faux fur coat, nice warm hat (I got the hat and coat from Quebec City) and even gloves. Am happy wearing all that for a walk out in the sunshine. A few years ago we used to go for a walk in the Trent Country Park on new years day. The fresh air and crunch of frost underfoot felt good and lifted my spirits. Not sure why we stopped doing that. In fact I cannot remember when we last went there. The last few years have been full of stress, pain and ill health for me and am hoping that finally times have turned to good now. The sad times are going to sleep with winter and spring will bring new hope and luck and health.

I love the snow as long as I do not have to go to work in it. Am not sure I ever liked driving in the snow. One day I remember I took my husband to the station just a mile down the road and it took me 30 minutes to get back, slipping and sliding everywhere. But I love to walk in the snow and throw snowballs. Have never done any other snow activity ever but walking is fun. I have walked in the snow in many places besides home - Scotland, Iceland, Cyprus, Black Forest in Germany, Sierras in Spain, Copenhagen, Moscow, St. Petersburg, New England... This year there was a lot of snow here but I was snuggled in my warm bed under the duvet as i was not well enough to go out. Hope that next time there is snow I am well enough to walk about in it. But who know where I will be.. will there be snow... as time is always uncertain and life is strange and unpredictable.

Thursday 8 October 2009

Need a laugh?

When you feel down and need a good laugh Ardal O'Hanlon can really cheer you up. Here is a list of short youtube clips of his entire show (not sure which year).


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=gHLxQt-jNwI
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QLh4fExnc7M
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bZWpu-eByRg
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ir-w9pDndtQ
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GJvk15D5zfI
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sK8vJ7KFRCU

Enjoy and forget the worries of life.

Wednesday 7 October 2009

Life is Fleeting

I always worried that a day might come when I am left without my sisters but it was something far in the futur, say in 15 - 20 years time. But the time is right here and what does one do? Nothing as one stands by impotently watching life drift out and away.. the tears are for the ones left behind. No matter how much one wishes things were different but we stop in front of the ultimate truth - our mortality. It makes one wonder what is life about, the small issues, the arguments, small hurts, big laughs, fun, joy, shared memories.... of a lifetime - my lifetime intertwined with those of my sisters. I have not finished grieving for one and the other is gone too. I just want to put a few words out here in the ether that all those gone are in our memory for always.

Brings to heart all the people gone and some hope that they all r sitting somewhere under a nice shady tree sipping long cold drinks and reminiscing about us! People say time heals... but I think time gives strength to remember with joy and happy memories. Of course there will be times when the pain just grabs u by the throat but those times get less and less. After all, I am not new to dealing with loss. So let us all rejoice in the fruitful and full life that was lead by my sisters and give thanks for the lives shared.