Happy 60th Paul

Celebrating Shashti Poorti, a significant milestone, memorable turning point

Apparently prayers and reaffirming of marriage vows mark this point

Everyone says happy birthday to you

But is it enough for me to just say happy birthday to you?

How can a few words even dent the many emotions

That are surely are expressed in everyday caring motions

I look forward to everyday spent with you

Hoping that it is the same with you

Wishing for you, health and happiness and peace

And I do all I can to help you live a life of ease

Cooking the foods you love

But baking a cake I cannot manage, love

I might be a tad obsessive about small issues

But you soon remind me they are but minor issues

I might annoy you a little by forgetting an odd thing

And giggles at bedtime and loud songs I occasionally sing

The best time with you has always been on holidays

The amazing places, sights and laughter we share on holidays

You used to wear everything blue when we first met

Now you wear clothes of every colour I can get

That hair went red in the sunshine

Now the hair is bleached with age and sunshine

The knees might creak but the walk is still tall

Ready to pick me up every time I fall

Strong believes and values you live up to

Makes you one that I look up to

Just as you stand between me and the world

I also always aim to protect you from this world

I could go on and on but enough for now

Let me leave some words for another poem about thou

Happy Birthday Paul

Is this Love?

She saw him first on a date

First one she had liked of late

Charming and handsome he was, she thought

Would this be love she thought?

Breath caught in the throat as eyes met

Even the heart missed a beat as eyes met

A twinkle in his eyes and smile adorned his lips

Could this be love she quips?

Eagerly waiting for the call at 6 o’clock

The sound his voice so pleasing as we talk

Wanting to spend time is all she thought

Is this love she thought?

The first holding of hands

Walking across the sands

The first kiss sent the heart into a flutter

Me thinks this is love she heard him mutter

Talking about plans for their life

All the sweet nothings with nary a strife

And he asked shall we wed?

Yes this is love she said

Awakening Emotions

She saw him across the road and liked the look

Can this be like a romance from a book?

The way of life was such that it was not possible to talk

So much for romance if you cannot talk

Heart felt a little flutter, is this love?

Often contrived for my path to pass him by

Peeping from under the lashes, still too shy

Time spent dreaming

Wonderful stories weaving

Heart is still a flutter, is this love?

This first flash to passion

Is very hard to ration

His thoughts sent her pulse faster

Face blushing and breathe faster

Heart is still a flutter, is this love?

But the time passed, oh so slow

Him looking at another was a low blow

A sharp pain in her heart

As if it would break apart

It is not meant to be, this love?

Tender Feelings

The trembling of a dew drop on a petal

The glistening of a metal

The smile on a baby’s face

The love’s tender gaze

Baby birds nesting in the leaves

Among uncurling new leaves

The pale green leaf unfurling gently

Touching the soft skin gently

Mothers holding their babies to breast

Hugging them to their chest

Love and tenderness are clear to see

Evoking emotion in all who see

To Love

I look across a crowded room

Suddenly there is no one else in the room

It is such a cliché love at first sight

Love pushes into my heart with might

The breath quickens

The heartbeat quickens

The world suddenly seem lighter

The future dreamy and brighter

The touch of his eyes on my face

Makes a blush creep up my face

My eyes adore him

Wishing always to look at him

So much said with eyes

So much unsaid by eyes

The first look lingers

The love you can almost touch with fingers

We are drawn towards each other

Wishing just to be with each other

The gentle breeze playing with my hair

Fragrance of roses in the air

The scent of roses always bring

That first memory of loving

Now that you are gone

My eyes searching on and on

The heart slowed

The breath pained

The eyes flow hot tears

Your memory like hot spears

Life seems an endless waste

Refusing to make haste

Time to heal this broken heart

Time to move on from this part

Then once again my eyes meet another’s across a room

Suddenly there is no one else in the room

Again!!!

Life's Journey through a Woman's Eyes

You are my love, you are my sunshine
You are my heart, my joy, just mine
I live to hear your voice every day we are apart
I live to see your smile when we are together all the time we are apart
I know you fill me – body, mind and soul
You make me whole

Am I just a wife – part of the marriage deal?
What about my dreams and needs?
They began to whither was I struggled to live the life based on your wants
I never thought I would have to fight for your attention and love
Maybe we took it for granted that love
I wanted to be one and know you body, mind and soul
In everything I said and did, no matter how foolish and misguided, that’s been my only goal

Every woman dreams of a family and children she creates with the one she loves
I thought that was your dream too
I was ready to and did do a lot to make our dream come true
Sadly you changed your dreams and I never knew
Just let me make plans – pipe dreams, castles in the air,
Disappointments, confusion and no one to share
Yet another dream to give up

When I returned from a short break I was hugged and kissed and felt I was missed
You wanted me!! I had struck gold again
The caring and sharing and the openness wiped out the pain
I was in love again, lost in the feeling of this newness again
The smile on my face refused to budge just as my libido
I wore my heart on my sleeve – to the world on show
It was life the first time, renewing our vows with our bodies and minds
A life I wished all would find.

The despair that is my life
What have a lacked as a wife?
Death would be welcome
If you do not come
I am so stupid I cannot even do something about that
Slicing the arteries on the wrist will stop the pain – that’s a fact
But the thought of causing you pain
I have nothing to gain
I asked time and again tell what you want
I will make my wants your want
But you are hard, will give me nothing to live on
Just ask me to live on
Slowly I began to accept my fate
The efforts to make a change were too late
I made a life lacking in hope
Lived every with death the only hope
To be free of this pain

To make matters worse I became ill
Every breath eventually became an act of will
I could not do for others as before
All my devotion of the past wiped out forever more
The betrayal is great was I ever more than a useful slave?
Why cannot anyone see my pain and put some love salve?
Give up hope give up feelings give up love
Forget that you ever were and free myself of love

Best live in the shadows, do what I am told
If I was to have my love – you - to hold
Diverted my passion to study
Forgetfulness that provided was heady
Going though the motions of living
Does not a life make.

Then you spoke to me again
Sharing and caring once again
I ask myself is this likely to remain?
I was to accept the care and love
My heart cautions can this be true
Dare I take up this roller coaster ride
You persuade me, take a leap of faith,
Game your heart for I am on your side
I will keep alive your faith
My heart flutters a first stirring of life in a long time
Will you remain true this time?

You talk of past and about moving on and I listen
Happy to have you back and I think you will also listen
Then you go and shoot my dreams down in flames
I do not know you are playing what games
You find her and I caution think about the motives
You write to her saying I just want to know she is fine
You say you are my life and wife but I want to have closure this time
Things are escalating out of hand
With my life still clutched in your hand
I care, I could have shared, but you never trusted me enough
Now I am bereft, I know not what to do
I know not what to say
Tears roll unbidden, dreams and heart in tatters once again
Stupid to feel so much so strongly about someone I do not know
But you know

I am terrified I am loosing you
You say you are aware that you are going through the infatuation stage now
But where am I now?
Where will I be soon?
I am not too proud to beg
Please give me back my life and love
I cannot share you now loose you
I cannot live without you
I can only say please oh please be MINE
I will stop being foolish, life with you is my only wish

On Mother's Day

Suddenly mother’s day is here
Everyone scrabbling to get a card,
And a present for someone so dear
But should this be only for the day

Mother protects and teaches
Mother cares and nurtures
Mother wipes away my tears
Mother kisses the hurt away
Mother encourages my abilities
Mother praises my achievements
Mother envelops my world with love
This she does every day and in every way
So why should mother’s day be only for a day
The love, care and respect for her
To be shown everyday

Ask those who do not have their mother
To care and cuddle, love and kiss the tears away
No one to soothe the pain of hurt
No one to murmur praise to keep you going
We all take mother and what she does for granted
Only when she is gone we realise she is always wanted

My mother is not there
She seems to have vanished
I shout as loud as I can for her
Tears streaming down my face
Looking here and there
I wake up from the nightmare
Its middle of the night
But I am eager to hear her voice
Reassure myself that she is there
To envelop my world with love
Thank god for everyday I have my mother
Not just on mother’s day

Repairing a broken heart

Is there a sound when a heart breaks?
Does anyone know when a heart breaks?
Can anyone see when a heart breaks?
Does anyone care when a heart breaks?

Life is full of ups and downs and heart aches
But its always a big deal when a heart breaks
What can be done to repair that heart
oh where does one begin to start

Dreary and short winter days add to the sadness
what are the ways to overcome this winter madness
let the cheering sun come out
to allow the banishment of depression bout

play some good music and dance
waltzing to music of romance
be with me to conquer my blues
dance with me to banish the sad hues

can we learn to laugh together again?
can we learn to dream again?
can we become best friends again?
and lean on each other again?

while spring is ideal time to renew each vow
however autumn is what we have now
so let us prepare the land of life
plow it ready by removing strife

joy shall be ours
happiness shall be ours
prosperity will move in
peace will reign